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I work from home now. Whenever I see the talkative collaborators getting enthusiastic about working (on a Saturday no less) and figuring things out for a corporation that only cares about profits, I have a visceral reaction and recoil from embarrassment. That may sound dramatic and don’t worry, it definitely is, but what’s more dramatic to me is how hard they willingly go above and beyond their pay grade. That used to be me from my early to mid twenties. That mentality I held is long gone now that I’m in my late twenties, and trust me when I say there is no going back.

I’m not saying there’s anything wrong with liking your job and wanting to do the best you can; to each their own, it doesn’t affect me how you want to go about your workdays. I think it more-so has to do with the fact that I’ve experienced this all when I was much younger, trying to find where my place was in all of this. I realized the agenda does not serve me, the employed, it serves the small percent at the very top trying to make as much profit as possible while supplying the workers with the absolute bare minimum. Anything more than the minimum most certainly deems that the employee costs more than they’re worth to keep. And we all know how much companies love to jump at the opportunity to hire anyone they can pay less and offer even less benefits to.

I’m the disillusioned Zillenial the Boomers warned you about; be wary and stay vigilant if you choose to continue reading. You might get triggered by the laziness practically oozing out of my words. You may be thinking: “Young people don’t want to work anymore! Get a job, get a life, and stop complaining. That’s how life is, deal with it.”

Did you know there are actually a plethora of possibilities in life, all of which are accessible to anyone at anytime, if only they open their hearts and minds to more than what was sold to them since birth? I can’t speak for the rest of the world, but in the United States, if you weren’t born with a silver spoon in your mouth, you’re immediately fucked. It makes crawling your way out of corporate or blue collar infinitely more difficult. You have to know someone that knows someone that can hopefully get you into the right rooms with the right people. While this certainly works and is the entire basis of successful networking, this isn’t exactly easy for everyone, especially for someone that’s neurodivergent. Again, this is not to say neurodivergent people are not capable of networking and masking successfully their whole lives to push through a job for money, but that’s not a way to live for anyone, any human being, regardless of neurodivergency.

When I was younger my father always told me to try my best to work for myself, that I don’t want to work for other people forever, the goal is to have them work for you. I understood what he was saying, and I carried that with me through all of my jobs. I agreed with him; I hated the idea of working for someone the rest of my life. I worked fast food, I worked retail, I even joined and served the military for 6 years in the field of healthcare. Now I work from home helping the healthcare field, which I genuinely enjoyed at first, but that went downhill as quickly as I expected.

I am capable of a lot of things. I have gone through adversity after adversity, pushing through it all with blood sweat and tears to come out the other side stronger than I was before. That’s normal for me. I was built to withstand immense amounts of pressure, to alchemize and integrate my lessons so I don’t make the same mistakes that keep leading me down a path of no return from a corporate hellscape and a negative attitude toward life. I’m not the only one built for this: you are too! Everyone has it within them to face adversity and have it change them for the better. It’s allowing the change, and allowing the adversity to work through you without losing yourself that takes effort. It’s effort well spent if you ask me, and truly priceless when it comes to growing as a human with the best intentions for themselves, their family, and their community.

It’s time for everyone to think outside of the box. Stay in corporate, stay in blue collar, because whatever is working for you is working and I would never tell anyone to do something different in their lives because that’s simply not my place. What I am saying, however, is there is more to this life than working day in and day out. “We need money to enjoy our lives, to take vacations so we can rest and return ready to work again.”

Have you ever thought of doing what you love instead? Seriously, forget about a normal job for just two seconds. What would you be doing right now if you didn’t have to work a job? Would you pour into yourself, your hobbies, your talents? While doing that, don’t you think life is on your side rooting for you? Don’t you think if you focus on following your joy and passions that opportunities for money for your talents will find you? How would you know if you never tried? How would you know if you gave up too soon?

I’m just a disillusioned Zillenial. No one needs to listen to me, I’m full of it. But… what if we lived for ourselves? For each other and our community? All food for thought, and honestly, I feed on it every single day. I’ll be making it big because I believe in myself when no one else does, or maybe ever will. Prove them wrong, too. Everyone can live a life without the normal 9 to 5. It sounds scary and impossible but it’s only impossible if you don’t even try. It’s my life to live and I’m doing whatever it takes to shine as brightly as I can for myself, for my family, for my friends and my community. I want others to see that they can do the same for themselves. We are all one and the same, we are human beings on this planet meant for greatness in life, not a dull rut in the ground doing the same thing over and over and over again just to make money. We are the money, we are the assets. We are more valuable doing what we love and are passionate about than wasting our time on corporations that don’t care for us in the slightest.